all i want to see from tonight’s kca awards is a picture of josh hutcherson and kristen stewart together! it’ll be a zathura reunion! :P

i think i’m gonna go for a break on tumblr, JUST for a bit.

i have one week off from school.

so i want to go to the gym this spring break and definitely finish reading the books i forgot about. and rewatch arrested development too. & for sure get some more sleep!

hefty list, hope i follow through.

It’s really sad when friends leave. You’d think that you were gonna be best friends forever.

I had this best friend for about 6 years and just one day she stopped talking to me. I have no idea why! On our first day back for second semester of college, she just walked right past me. And sometimes she’s really mean, like when I would turn in my test to the teacher, she would push me or cut me to turn her test first. Like WTF. I just want to slap her and ask what the hell is wrong with her. This had taught me a valuable lesson. As we grow up we don’t lose friends. We just learn who our real ones are. It’s really sad, I thought we were friends. At least tell me why you’re not talking to me. But whatever. I don’t want to ever make up with her again. I realized who my real friends were, and she wasn’t.

omg, i am crying. i’m reading Catching Fire and i’m on chapter 24. at the part where katniss and peeta are telling each other who needs who more. omgggggg )):

the hunger games is my life now.

It’s 12:49 AM and I’m still up reading The Hunger Games. Can’t help it, it’s suuuuch a good book. Idk why it took me so long to read it. I’ve heard about it for a couple years now, but only until I saw the trailer that I finally thought of buying the book. And I’m glad I did. I’m already at Chapter 21, and I started on Friday I think. Anyway, anyone who hasn’t read it yet MUST READ IT.

I miss them so much. Yeah, the past couple of years were hell to me. With all the drama with friends & family, I couldn’t handle it. But looking back, there were some moments I truly wish to relive.

The days where I couldn’t care less about anything. The days where I hung out with my best friends and went on silly adventures. The days where I video taped everything and made little montages. The days where the only important things were friends and not stupid boyfriends. The days that just count.

I’m 19 and I don’t do those things anymore. I’m out of high school and everything is different. I don’t talk to those people anymore. It’s more of a “omg, i miss you!”, “let’s kick it sometime!”, or just a mere “hi & bye”. But I guess that’s just growing up, huh?

But I’m the one who stayed the same! So really, they’re the one who changed. They probably just grew out of me as their friend.

What, just cause I don’t want to drink? I don’t want to smoke? And all that other shit? I don’t need to do all that. I like to just chill with friends who wants to do whatever, just not be under any influence. Why can’t I just be myself without any of that? But you know, you can do that shit if you want. Just don’t tell me I’m a loser cause I don’t want to do it with you. Why is it so hard to make real friends nowadays? I am who I am, I don’t need your approval.

I treated my birthday like it was any other day. Quite simple actually. I guess it doesn’t really matter anymore after you turn 18.

I woke up. Watched my show that I am currently on. Which is Friends (again) & Arrested Development. For like the entire day. Thanked everyone on FB who greeted me. Did my makeup somewhere in the middle and got dressed. Then went out to eat with my family.

I don’t actually celebrate it… But during my birthday week, I usually go to a movie with some friends. Which was what we always did since I was 14. Also because there was nothing else to do for a birthday in winter -.-

I was hoping that my “best friend” would greet me. But I guess that bitch really is being stupid. I don’t even know why she isn’t talking to me. Now I know I won’t greet her on her birthday next week. How can you be best friends for years, then the next day she drops you without even telling you. I’ve been trying to text/call her but she never picks up.

Well, 2012 will be better without her. Fuck her, I’m better off without her. New year, new friends.